Virtual Life

How do you define it? Well.. Does it really have to choose between work,love or friends? Why can’t everything co-exist.. Maybe i am not good at balancing this things.. Ruined up or screwed up in this everytime.. Well all my weakness has gotten the best of me.. Of course i won’t tell what is those.. Mana tau later got enemy looking here.. Haha.. For me.. It would be freedom and fair.. Other things i don’t look on too much cause career is very important at this age.

But guys or girls out there remember!! Everyone is different..every person has their own concept of being together.. so everything is not based on romance books or theoritically based.. That’s why people need time together and understand the needs between each other when they start to date.. It’s a mutual kind of thing.. Well I name this Mutual Love Chemistry.. You may wonder that you like this certain girl but maybe it won’t turn out as you think but luckily for me.. Everything turned out fine.. Just as i expected.. But.. level of maturity,thoughts and concept is not at the same level so.. maybe in future.. if the time is right.. and everything is exactly nice.. The chemical will start to react.. Haha..

Everyone thought that love is about treating the opposite good that’s enough? Believe me.. you are definitely wrong.. I have seen not to say alot but suffice for me to say..it all depends on the needs of your counterpart.. Ahha.. i recalled.. you need to be on the same phase or speed in the blooming love.. either side is not going the normal rate will result in a sour relationship.

And then i recalled one thing.. once a good buddy told me that male is male and female is female is not for nothing.. Everything is there for a reason.. Therefore, guys and girls i different in nature,mentally and physically.. So don’t assume them to be like you.. Haha.. You can have an identical twins put in different environment to grow up and then what you get is totally differnet attitude.. What can we conclude here? No one is same by hook or by crook.. so face it.. Don’t ask others to change for you.. It’s easier to change yourself than others..Well i might have said alot but most of it i think is true and most of it not much human can achieve..and of course that includes myself.. I can’t even do a single bit of it..haha..well ciaoz

Some friend ask me why i like to mix with people so much?Some ask me why i nowadays so keen to meet up with old time friends.. hmm i ask myself again and again.. i finally got the reason.. i hate losing friends and memories.. good or bad..memories form the way i am today.. Well people do change and i notice that alot of friends changed alot.. Well.. I still have contact with most of the close friend.. come out supper dinner together and someitmes vacation together too.. But.. recently i think back and found out there’s a few groups i seldom mix with already.. There’s my diploma classmate that was very close then.. Then my advanced course friends too.. Then there’s one group of hostel mates too.. Well…Some of them are my best buddies once.. Haha.. Well i still think i am not humane enough..but then again..people grow apart de mar.. It’s not that I am not content with the people i am mixing.. I am happy really really happy.. hometown friends..some of the other hostel mates that i still see..and my housemates and some new friends.. they are splendid people.. but I hate the idea of forgetting old time friends.. so..i am now on a mission to meet with old buddies.. And i hope those that read this blog will not be offended.. I am actually very content now.. with the current friends.. but ..hehe.. to meet also with once upon a time’s buddy will be a great thing and great time..haha..and too old friends.. i hope that if i ever offended anyone during the past then i am sorry..let me make it up to you guys.. and come out to hang out together like we used to..haha

I was on my way to work just as usual today. Jams..Slow traffic..Well..the usual case of getting up early and estimate more time for the slow traffic etc. etc. Then comes the radio.. Radio has been my companion to work since the day i started my working life.. Today they said bout our countries river pollution factors that contribute to flooding and stuff.. Singapore invited us over for a brief regarding their techniques and controlling river flow and garbage cleansing from the bottom of the river. to our luck..our country agreed..or else who knows when we can actually be able to upgrade ourselves.. from my point of view.. no matter how proud or good you are.. you still need to get advise from others.. no one is perfect in every way..needless to say bout a country..haha.. ok.. back to the topic.. i’ve been wondering.. certain countries with more "kepadatan populasi" can have a smooth traffic..better traffic conditions..less accidents throughout.. hmm.. why is it? well some might say there’s too much cars on the road.. well.. acceptable .. with some tuning points.. i would too much reckless drivers.. i won’t pinpoint out the race,gender.. but whoever reads this should know well enough.. I would like to stress on a point here..certain people,gender or race or sometimes too proud of themselves.. I am not saying proud isn’t good.. but with achievements you can be proud.. or else just try to be more humble,wouldn’t it be fine? Why other countries can live in harmony but we can only reach an average level? Obviously pride has taken the best of us.. Maybe if we could really try to think everyone is equal then that we can actually be a better community..No one is better than the other.. Obviously there’s something one is better than the other.. So no matter who you are.. hehe.. lower the pride.. well.. better said than done.. i am also consumed by "pride" sometimes.. so.. i am just saying this when i am still concious.. wuahaha.. ok.. is there any solution out there for lowering the traffic rates?

well.. if me.. i would propose that license training before conduction the actual test would be stretch longer.. yes.. maybe the price is higher.. so what..? this we can increase the public awareness and understanding what "driving" actually means.. they can learn longer.. maybe let’s say a year.. with more than 70 driving lessons..then put up a test examination.. that way.. no average joe would be able to drive.. this way we could minimize traffic jam.. decrease accident rates.. lower down death rates.. increase traffic speed.. and also on the road tolerance.. some might be thinking.. if the license is stretch so long?how am i suppose to get my car license to go work or school.. dude.. think closely.. there’s the freaking bus and lrt and ktm.. and petrol nowadays isn’t "that" cheap anymore.. so please.. plus.. certain people that has a slower mind would never get their car license.. this way the roads will have less unwanted drivers.. people will carpool.. public transport will be more popular.. countries annual spending will be less.. what’s wrong with it? don’t try to complain saying some public transport are too used up..torn up.. then learn harder to drive.. or support the public transport so they have enough budget to change those seats with gums..

well need to start working already..adios..

Well,I left my previous company around beginning of June. Was feeling kinda bad cause my ex-company was so good. It has such splendid environment. The most friendly colleagues I have ever met. Management that really take their time to care for you. Well everything you ever wanted. Just due to some personal reasons that I have to quit the job. I went back for a 5 spot sebacesous cyst removal at my own sweet hometown Kuantan. It isn’t a very developed place but it has the smell of home sweetness and the close bonds of humanity. this is the few several times I have been able to meet some scenodary schoolmates after six long years. Reason? Haha..Was i was taking my further studies in TAR college after graduated from the secondary school.. I hardly go back is not the reason but my long semester breaks always fall in the wrong time. Let me define… Every other colleges semester break will be my semester starting period and when mine comes. It’s everyone’s semester mid already. Only a few will be around.

Lucky for me this quitting of job and surgery plus rest vacation of mine within this recent 2 months has brought me back to see the long lost friends. I called this period my career hibernation period.. I met back alot of friends I treasure. Alot of them has changed for the better i see. Everyone is not like they used to. Not to the extend that they used to fool around. But now everyone is concentrating on their career. which makes me the only out of job and unemployer person. But everything has it’s good and bad. Unemployed but able to see and meet up with people that I seldom see. And also I am able to identify and see who’s the true friend out there.

I have this silly attitude of asking people about my weaknesses in attitude. In fact I always bug people until they are totally fed up of me. Well I call that my attitude concious doubt. I always seems to feel I am not good enough and always will bring trouble and mischiefs. That’s why I want to know more. I received alot of feedbacks. Some gave me the actual feedback,some ask me to think for myself as i’m suppose to be able to figure out,some call me to just be myself because true friends will always accept you for who you are. But silly me I still ask that. I suppose most of you have been bugged by me by this question for along time now. Well I am not good in figuring things. I am scared I assume wrongly and that’s also because I always guessed the wrong thing. Haha..That’s my problem.. And probably I start to keep realizing this because due to the fact alot of my friends went back to hometown or foreign countries to pursue their future. Leaving back a small portion of people and my lack of confidence that makes me a blur case.

In this recent years, I tried to indulge myself in various kinds of industries which is mainly sales and marketing side. I was involving myself in sales of credit card(Most Banks),Car(Mostly too,new and old,sell or buy),photostate machine,postpaid handphone numbers,streamyx,pstn,voip,telemarketing,PC,handphones,programs..But all couldn’t even lead to my survival in this highly competitive city of KL.Everyone has the same resources and I am not the type that has creativity to enlarge or build up my steps and ways to invite customers. That’s why i still concentrate on my career as an IT person.

Well luck has it with me that my dear old Friend Thomas that I chanced to get close with from the days of TAR college hostel has brought me to my current company of Plato Solutions Sdn. Bhd. It’s considered a software vendor company that promotes and sell various products that I am interested in learning. I’m in the ROSS division of this company and here we are doing an ERP system called ROSS/Gembase and alot more programs and software and I can’t even figure out which to begin with. It’s a great company. And again with nice and comforting colleagues that really helps you when you are in a so called "shitty" position. They are friendly and fun loving and I learn alot from them. Although is abit far from my place. But I think that the environment here can let me learn and survive minimally for the next 20 years. People choose to go for higher salary better benefit places but for me I rather choose a nice and comforting environment cause i can enjoy working rather than enjoy making money. For me, this company offers good benefit. In addition, good environment too..Haha..I talk like i am a spkesperson of this place..Well I just started so I can’t assume much about this place so soon. I met new people..New friends and alot more new things. Guessed i need sometime to get used to it.

Back to friends, I been thinking why do people mix with various groups of friends as they grew up? Well I tried to remain contact with most people but I can seem to understand why?Any reason to you whoever out there? One of my best buddies told me that growing apart will be the reason for me and him seldom seeing each other. And another is types of people he mix with and I mix with. Well it seems people do grew apart. Well to all my friends and buddies out there.. And first and foremost my "brothers" of log7.. No matter how far we grew apart, you guys will forever remain my bestest best friend forever. And again … what I used to do.. I am sorry to anyone who’s ever been offended by my slighest act or move. Feel free to comment me about it. I am now a person that can accept comments..Bad or Good is ok..!!!

Well I was once quite egoistic and very  very very unreasonable. This group of friends gave me advise and ideas and tried to consult me out of it despite me being a very very hard boiled person.. haha..well that was the past.. Today I just wanna meet more people. change my stupid attitudes.. I consider my self a naive and soha* person nowadays.. Maybe last time i am too controlling etc etc.. Trust me.. Today I won’t bite. Well for better or for worse I realize today that in a relationship better friends than enemy. I don;t know if anyone trust in medium or superstition.. But me i went once to a medium.. She told me Friends and Faimly always comes first from Love and Money. Well friends are always very important to me. Family too.. And love will eventually be family. Right?

now i remember..the word’s bossy.. I was too bossy and strict at the old times.. well after I banged my head once in a condo called my setapak ria..it seems i lost my temper.. and some memories with it.. there was a college mate that was kinda close to me..and i forgot him thoroughly..haha..well i hope there’s no other person i had forgotten.

hmm.. Why are we all so concentrated in career this days?hmm..for a better living?money?girls?guys?sense of security?.. face it .. haha everyone is working towards their goal.. but how bout mine? i have no goals or anything yet.. haha..well but for now i am trying to indulge in more things to widen my knowledge.. but one good ex colleague once told me too many knife non is sharp..haha..not only him.. but alot of good frens also told me the same.. One thing i rather not uinderstand is that most people are scared or try to avoid to speak their minds. When people ask them something they prefer to answer sarcasticly. Why so? they scared people will be mad at them or what? well for me..i don’t mind people telling.. because that’s what friends are for right? to tell you you are wrong when they should. praise is not compulsory but wrongs..haha.. well..maybe that’s because most of the people out there cannot accept their wrongdoings and always will be too protective on that.. And if you tell them their wrong.. You mind end up losing a friend knowing a new enemy.. That’s why most people would not dare to tell scare to invoke any misunderstanding or emnity between friends. Haha… Well that’s human nature i guess..

Working in subang is a funny thing actually..  It’s the other side of the place I stay.. haha.. Well i am staying in setapak with one of my best buddy.. He introduced a few decent and nice friend to me.. Well they used to be my friends.. But now.. they are all brothers to me..

For me.. I am considered a fast guy.. I hate to slowly become close with friends.. Cause eventually you would get close.. So why need to be so protective? So i always would like to be closer frens with people i meet that I feel can be friends. Skip the process of slow.. Well why waste our time.. Humans timespan isn’t as long as it used to be.. More shortcuts should be implemented not only in computers.. But lifestyle as well.. But then again.. Haha.. I wasted most of my times slumbering and finding "zao gong".. I am sleepy as I write this blog.. But i am working.. My friend Thomas just passed a simple task for me to improve in my programming skills.. Well thanks to him i got this job,he gave me some trainings which i feel is very useful..haha..and sooner he’s gonna be my immediate superior i think..

Sometimes i  notice people out there likes to ask people.. Hei got kang tao?got lubang? got any decent work for my free time? blah blah blah.. well.. I like to ask people also.. but one friend once told me.. money is everywhere.. in fact two person told me that.. we need to identify our strong points and weakpoints.. identify the market and wala… we get our own kang tao..again i am weak at this so..i dun have any lubang…haha…ear lubang got lar..

sometimes.. i be thinking..life is much more simpler hundreds of years ago.. we live and eat and money circulated around the same village or town.. plus..we don;t need to think so much as.. we always inherit the job from our ancestors.. and jobs will only involve repetitive steps of a certain scope.. now? we have to work our ass off.. think new idea..creative..etc in order to wat? to just secure a job…wahlaoeh… what kind of world is this dude? plus i am living in a place that verything is increasing…except my salary remains… oh well.. "they" say our raw materials are still the lowest rate in all asia.. haha… once a good friend told me this uncle told me everything is relative..depends how u see it.. so it’s up to you to whether to believe we are lowest or highest.. no comment in this topic..

Career..I found in dictionary is occupation,profession..hmm..what do you think bout it? i used to say that this world we have too many person thus we have alot of different views for every matter.. So i assume here that career for people also have different versions of understanding..

Well..Some might want to look for a company that has hierachy so that they can climb the corporate ladder in the same company and achieve their dreams.. this kind of people should be those thinking of company prospect one that can let them climb and be secured at the same time.

Some only look on the benefit of the company. Insurance,denture,Medical benefit,Bonus and Salary. What they want is to have better life by not using their own money. Company has to bear to most of their health issues. For this type, usually is for people who has health matters. Also.. Usually for those people that looks for high amount in their pay check. Regardless of the job prospect.

Some will look to get a company that is well established. So that they can work there very very long time. This is because..jobs are hard to seek these days.. Some people tend to get a very secure job regardless of pay or prospect. I would like to stress in the point why do i say well established might not have good prospect. cause a big company might have a small HR department. thus there’s no prospect for HR department

Some is looking for a geographical acceptable place of work. Near is the main criteria of working. The company might not be a hell of a company. Might not be a high pay one. As long as they get to go back home and work in a split second. Well that’s a good thing actually. Resttime more.

Maybe there’s alot more reason’s of getting a job but i stop here liao.. Some lucky basta** might get a job with everything.. A complete package. But i don’t think there’s much chance to it.